A Moment Of Truth

Oprah calls them "Ah-ha! Moments." I call them "Moments of Truth." They are inevitable. They are coming, to you, and to me. You can not avoid them. You can not stop them. You can not prepare for them. They were never meant to be prepared for. That is how raw and powerful they are. They will leave you different from the person you were when they found you.

Sometimes it's hearing a doctor's diagnosis. Sometimes it is your Romeo asking you to spend the rest of your life with him down on one knee (and with some bling, of course!). Sometimes it is hearing the shattering words that over half of our country have heard,"This marriage is over." Sometimes it is hearing your parents say, "Mommy and Daddy are no longer going to be together." Sometimes it is seeing two little unexpected pink lines on a pregnancy test. Sometimes it is the phone call you get in the middle of the night of someone explaining that there has been a tragedy to your loved one. Somtimes it is hearing the man you love more than anything in the world take vows before the Lord, his friends, and family to cherish, honor, and love you unconditionally.

Whatever the specifics of the moment are, it is the moment itself changes your journey here on Earth, forever.

Daniel and I are the typical first time parents. When Thomas gets here, I am sure that we will worry ourselves to death about SIDS, his development, his happiness and security, if he's getting enough nutrition, if I'm a good Mom, if Daniel's a good Dad, if we're teaching him the important things of this life, and if he's the cutest baby in the county. We have read the books, taken the classes, and asked a million pieces of advice from a million different people. However, I am not naive enough to believe that all of this "knowledge" that I have accumulated over the past seven months will serve much, if any, purpose once Thomas is actually here in my arms. Like I said earlier, you simply can not prepare for some things. I am sure that when I look at D and say, "I think it's time we go to the hospital," it will feel nothing like what we think it will, but it will be magical in its own way. Every single bit of our expectations for that day or night will go be blown away and replaced by a much deeper, more geniune, loving experience that we could have even imagined. It will be a moment of truth like none other.

I believe these Moments are a part of God's design for our lives and are critical for the development of our understanding about who He is. They break us of the cycle of trying to live independent from the One who designed us. Sometimes that cycle is where you feel distant and disconnected from God because of whatever current circumstance you are in, so you develop this "independence" from God in your heart where you try to quit relating to Him because you feel abandoned, deserted, and maybe confused as to where He fits into this messy picture that you call your life. Any maybe no one around you even seems to notice this hardness in your heart, so you get good at ignoring it too, and it slowly becomes so natural that it's characteristic of your life. Sometimes the cycle of "independence" is more subtle because it appears harmless. It ocurs at a time when you seem to have life all together. Things are going pretty smoothly. Your relationships appear stable and secure. Your debt is currently under control. Your kids are healthy and well behaved. Your life is full of rich experiences. But somewhere in all of that, you have lost touch with your one True Love, the One we call God.

So see, I think that while these Moments of Truth can be terrifying and have the ability to shake you to your core, they should be embraced. They bring you to a place where you are vulnerable. A place that does not always feel "safe." A place where you are really ready to run to Jesus because you realize that Truth is Truth, and nothing else stands in comparison. Run to Jesus.

I do not have all the answers. In fact, with my curious little personality, most days I seem to have more questions than I do answers (just ask Daniel, I LOVE to ask him questions!). But when I am resting in the Truths of Jesus, I do not worry about all the unknowns.


.....On a lighter note, you will not be hearing from me for about a week on the blog! "What's new?"...I can hear your sarcastic comments now Cassie:) I will be traveling down to South GA to meet my new niece, Mary Frances!! For now, these are the only pictures I have of her. But don't worry, you know I will be back with a million more next week!!



Anyone think she resembles Thomas at all?!? Any comments? I'd love to hear from you!